i am an idiot.
i have the best friend in the world, and yet i persist, unknowingly, to hurt her with my actions and words.
since i was not aware of these things, i used to wonder why it seemed that my friendship was faltering.
i even let the crazy thought enter my mind that she might be at fault.
of course, now i see the light and the folly of my ways.
i make this pledge public so that it may be known that i am not a person as evil as i have been potraying myself.
it is also public so that fear of public shame might keep me from straying from the path of friendship again.
since i am shameless, it defeats the purpose somehow, but nevertheless, some shred of shame left in me might as yet yank me back to my responsibilities as a friend.
i reiterate my solemn pledge to try and be worthy of the grace and benevolence that has been my lot ever since i had the companionship of this person, something that i have come to take for granted, unfortunately. i plead for wisdom and foresight to ensure I never again will let this happen.

onkar.